I did it! I took a day off and did absolutely nothing. I actually took a couple of days off, but I had to do some things on Friday so I can't say that I took two days off, but I really did get a good one and half days. I never got out of my pajamas on Saturday and I just sat around and watched football games and baseball games. I don't recall the last time I was that unproductive and I must say it felt very good. I think the only word I can use to describe it is "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh".
Today I ran out in the middle of the desert. I love to run in the desert. It is finally getting cool enough to do it and it is beautiful out there. There is a wonderful feeling of solitude and survival out in the desert. I run away from all of the development and I get to enjoy a very quiet and peaceful run.
I discovered what I call a "Hollaren Rock." I call it that because it is perched high up on top of a hill and it is a big flat rock. When I get on the rock, I am about 100 feet up from the ground. It is big enough and flat enough that I do not feel any danger. The only way I can describe it is to say that I feel away from everything. When I am on the rock I holler the things that I want. I scream them out into the desert. Things like – I will achieve my goals – I have unlimited energy – I will be true and faithful to myself and to my standards – I will help others – I will be – I will live – I will be happy – I will love. It is such a great and powerful feeling. I often just want to sit there and dangle my feet over the edge and ponder. It always seems too soon when I have to leave. I love it there.
There is something about screaming that makes me feel good. Not angry screaming – screaming that is full of joy and desire. It takes a while for me to feel comfortable doing it. I am worried that somebody might discover me. When I let go and really go for it, the benefits are huge. When I return from a trip to the "Hollaren Rock" I feel energized and ready to face it all. I feel thankful to have gone there today. It was the perfect way to become the new me and to leave the old one that was feeling tired and worn out behind. I needed it bad.
See you on the road!
Andrew
